Stacey

Karl, Honestly your comment saved me from further spiraling downward today. The recap has been trying recently because I feel more distracted by the intrusive thoughts than usual, feeling really disconnected, and my expectations of myself are pretty high, which is expressive of that wall. I think it's all coming forward like this because I'm ready, not that I FEEL the least bit capable of handling it all. But I'm gonna try to keep the gentle energy of your comment in mind...sometimes I think if I could figure out how to be gentle to myself, that whole wall would just untangle seamlessly. Thanks for being intentionally gentle with me. S.

Hi, I'm looking for Maker advice on dealing with life outside of the Shamanic. I notice whenever I'm in my awareness/intent exploring around I am fine. Totally fine, mesmerized, very understanding and respecting of my personal power and starting to accept it. I needed a lot of rest today and allowed that so I dove into the sea a bunch to rest and recover, learning everything I need to know. with my *energy* that is. Everything makes sense, and I can tell my self doubt is either weakening or I'm just not in my head when I'm there. When I get out of it however I'm sucked right back into the abyss again- I just feel like the same old intensely crazy person I am again, intrusive thoughts come crashing in, I feel like I need to run away from everything I know, flashbacks over everything, feeling deathly over my break up with my ex bf, and soooo very rawwwww. I am holding on to my big intents and shooting them out with all the strength of my will, recapping, etc. being resourceful. Do I just need to keep holding on tight like this and putting up with my crazies until...I don't know when? What advice or wisdom do any of you have for intrusive thoughts? I saw a fox before who told me I needed to approach them like a fox would, would this require shapeshifting? I have done it with a crow once and great white sharks many times, just something that seems to happen on its own. Just not sure if it's advisable early on like this. Thanks, S.