Naeranira, if I may.
The initial thought I had when reading your post(s) was the familiarity of some of what you are experiencing in comparison to my own. I was hesitant to reach out because silenceseeker had posted such a wonderful reply but I thought I would contribute something from my own perspective and I wanted to begin by saying that I do not think we can accurately label an energy as a ‘demon’. I’ve always found myself fascinated by Ed and Lorraine Warren's works in regards to the paranormal but found it, in many ways, insufficient in identifying the true nature of what we have come to call as ‘demonic.’
It always makes me wonder, if demons are masters of illusions and tricks, what are they really?
But I’ll save theology for another time!
You asked: “What sorts of entities go about possessing people?”
And I thought: “The ones that resonate with those people in some energetic/psychological way.”
Most attachments I’ve encountered have always been symbiotic; that both parties receive something from the relationship in one way or the other.
From personal experience with a case close to home, I can say that I have witnessed a cluster-spirit situation on two occasions. One was with a friend of a friend that was diagnosed with “multiple personality disorder” and another (still a current case actually) with some dear friends and their autistic nephew. Both are such unique situations that it’s hard to set them beside a single-attachment and say that there is not a group involved.
I realize now, as I’m writing and thinking about my response, that it’s actually oddly difficult to clearly separate the two unless you tune-in intimately to the situation and are capable of reading the subtle energy changes.
I think my distant friend with MPD sometimes and I find that the easiest way to explain it is that when their personality changed, so did the energy/vibrations around them. It really felt no different than interacting with different people of different origin/creative expression.
Sometimes too, it’s like a ‘clamor’ of energy where there are many parts to the whole. “One thing” manifested by “many voices”. Kind of like looking at a petri dish of muddy water under a microscope. With the naked eye, you see water with little particles of dirt swishing around with the H2O, but with the microscope, you see tons of individual little cells doing their thing as a collective. Feeding, dividing, growing, sometimes in-fighting, and generally, just expanding and populating their ecosystem.
Your next one: “If I do indeed have a demon, it wishes harm only on those who 'deserve' it, i.e. rapists, pedophiles, etc. Still hateful, predatory emotions, but very specific. It feels protective and guardian-like, as I am, as far as innocents go.. This is confusing to me, because are demons not evil creatures? Why would they distinguish? And I have been driven to hurt innocents in my youth by something. It just seems different.”
This situation is rather familiar to me.
To make an incredibly long story short, and to put it in a nutshell, I resonate with the situation because I experienced a lot of tragedies near the beginning of my life. I was diagnosed with cancer, experienced various forms of abuse (sexual and not) throughout a greater part of my life, and was homeless/gypsied for just as long. Set aside a lot of manipulation, hunger, and people that didn’t stick around and you have a recipe for a lot of anger, hatred, and resentment to people as a whole.
My only response to that inquiry is that I do not believe it to be an entity whatsoever, but the way that the your attachments to the experiences have manifested.
It is in no way a negative thing, it just means what you need most at this moment is love, support, self-love, and self-healing. Which is why silenceseeker’s post was awesome. I’ve only recently battled my own demons in that way and I will also support her in that the journey to self-healing can sometimes be an incredibly difficult one. And really, it’s one that never ends until you find true peace and love for it all and are capable of defining what peace and love mean to you.
I will also say that it’s incredibly rewarding.
When that negative space was cleared, a whole lot of positive came in.
This leads me to: “Can multiple beings affect me in different ways all at the same time? Must they all mean me harm?”
This feels like a little bit of a sticky question.
Yes, multiple beings can affect you, or anyone, in many ways but it boils down to a matter of the reason why they are capable of affecting you in the first place. It would be easy to say “just set up boundaries and clear them with intent” but I don’t like that answer nor the implications of it. I believe the true task is self-healing.
There is something in you that resonates with them, in that symbiotic way, and that something has to be eliminated in order to remove the resource that these things are feeding from. To put this into better perspective, you mentioned that you fall down in crippling pain when you attempt to do something that you love.
That is a sign that what you love will eliminate what they need to survive.
Part of the self-healing has to be not only coming to peace with all the events in your life but to put something in place of what was there. Pulling in positive energy and things that nurture the ‘good’ in order to grow and evolve beyond your experiences, the emotions, and the entities that were part of the ‘old way’.
There is a saying that “the shadow is only as large as you think it is”.
To apply more of your situation to all of this (and what I did on my own journey), I’d suggest exploring the energy associated with the protective, guardian-like being that seeks to do harm to those who deserve it, while you are on your self-healing path. Figure out what it needs to protect. Then go deeper and view that thing, and deeper still, until you find the root. If it needs love, give it love. If it needs to be retrieved, let it be retrieved and bring it to a better place in order to transform it. If it’s something else that needs to be done, only you will know what it will be. The best part about self-healing is that the best way is the personal way.
To the second half of the question, not all entities/spirits have to be negative or harmful and it is never a bad idea to reach out to the loving, positive entities that resonate with you.
There was a quote from a channeling I was present with that I really like... though I don’t necessarily remember the exact wording, it was something like, “We are not your gods. We are not above you, or below you, and you are not above us, or below us, we are simply beside one-another and are all equal in all things. Do not kneel before us, stand beside us, and know that it is okay to ask for help. We are all ready to assist you in your endeavors, all you have to do is ask.”
“I have been told that at least 1 entity around me looks like a stone gargoyle. And does not seem innately evil. They suggested it was a past life incarnation of me, actually, which is confusing. But I've also heard tell of reptilians having a gargoyle-like appearance and being tricky. Kind of random, but has anyone heard of anything like this? Can you be possessed by yourself? Do you think that is really what is going on, or is it something malicious trying to trick me into having a affinity? It is so complex.”
I only have a small perspective to offer on this one, but from my aspect of the world, I’m inclined to believe that you’re not necessarily ‘possessed’ by yourself but have manifested a facet of yourself in order to preserve. To many cultures that have the gargoyle, it’s a creature meant to ward off harmful spirits, much like the Komainu to the Japanese or the Shisa to the Chinese.
This is mostly just food for thought.
And the last one: How can I break the shackles of mind implants, of entity oppression, how can I retrieve my soul? I am so weakened and nothing has worked so far. I am desperate honestly.
Self-healing.
That is where it all begins.
I’ve also done a kind of cord-cutting as well as done some weaving/matrix work to really understand that nature of myself and all things. If you’re interested in the techniques I’d be more than open to share but my first inclination is to support the recapitulation and a true self-healing journey. All the other stuff can come later when you’re ready and at a point in your journey to take on more.
Please also take all of this with a grain of salt.
If it resonates with you, awesome! If not, that’s okay too!
I just hope I was capable of bringing something to the table in light of your journey.
Mitakuye oyasin.
