ArcaneHuman

thanks. i think part of the difficulty is "seeing" them. i feel like a blind man being jumped by ten hooligans. i can kind of tune into the bad energy and then tell the general feeling of them/it "Eff" off, get out of here. leave me the hell alone. but yeah... i think putting my foot down and demanding anything leave my field is important but it's a bit difficult. the energy/entities or whatever are very persistent.

I get psychosis about once every week and half to two weeks. I surmised at one point that if this is indeed a spiritual experience/spiritual attack that there must be a literal team of entitites feeding off my energy and manipulating my energy bodies and thoughts, each with their own specialty, towards the end of feeding on specific energy signatures that they manipulate into existence through messing around with my energy and mind. I figure that there are probably lower life form types (animalistic/insect like/ etc) and more intelligent beings as well who feed me mind games. Yesterday, tor pretty much the first time ever, as i started to feel the psychosis setting in, i noticed (energetically) a tentacle wrap around my lower spine to drain me of energy. I didn't feel any need to try to banish it from my field. I felt as though observing it and being aware of its presence was enough to help reduce its efficacy. Regardless... i'm not expert enough in shamanism to know how to banish entities from my field anyway. I feel like i need to continue seeing more entities that are in my field so i'm not at the disadvantage of being blind to what these things are doing to my mind/astral/etc. How do i become more aware of infiltration of my energy bodies? Are there ways of communicating with or exorcising these kind of entities? Any other advice related to this? TIA

That makes sense. I'll try to feel it out. Thank you!

I decided to directly recap a lot of trauma two days ago. I spent pretty much one whole 12 minute recap session focusing on trauma from childhood and adulthood bouts with psychosis. My friend had cautioned me against doing this kind of thing too soon, probably two or three years back. But I've been recapping daily for a long time and i reached a point where i was like... well my psychosis couldn't get much worse than it already is so i ought to try going directly after the really difficult memories. I had a huge breakthrough a few hours later. This may be in part due to the fact that i've been meditating a lot and eating better. So it's unclear what i was doing right. Now i'm wondering if i should keep diving in and going after the trauma directly. Maybe i'm just ready for it since i've been recapping daily for so long. It also might be worth noting that i'm taking recap I this "semester" if you could call it that. TIA for any advice.

I have in the past and could still never recapture the momentum and profundity of the energy from the night before, but your reply has helped me to realize that i should probably start doing this again even it's not a perfectly efficacious method. Maybe i could try the "sliding emotions" exercise when i wake up? I even thought of drawing a glyph at night and meditating on it in the morning. I think you're right. I was actually reading recently about how right handed people are probably more left brain dominant from writing by hand.

I don't know if there's a technique or teaching from the Maker tradition that can address this but i figure i may as well ask. I learn so much throughout some of my days. Then i go to sleep and i wake up and it's like a total reset. It feels like i've forgotten everything. I usually wake up like... ugh... i don't want to face the day. So it's hard to start my day off on the right foot. Any techniques or advice to deal with this?

yeah i'm interested to see how it will all come together as i learn more. thanks.

Word. This class keeps getting recommended to me. For some reason i keep wanting to sign up for stalking I. I'm now leaning towards recap because it's been recommended a number of times. I think two classes in one "semester" is too much for me. Your advice really encouraged me to make a list of all the exercises (which i'm still in the process of doing). And i did engage with more challenging ones today, like last week's exercise seeing through the dark. That one's definitely a challenge. I did the coin exercise too. I had crazy results with that one today. But the results didn't even seem like the point of it. So i guess it's good to have ones i enjoy doing and balance that out with ones that take more energy and focus. I could ramble on but i won't. Thanks for the insight and advice

So i have taken Spirals I and am in the middle of Quicksilver. There's so many exercises under my belt that i don't totally know what to do with them. Like... i don't know if it's enough to just do the exercise for each week and then drop it like a hot potato or if i should try to determine for myself what practices i should do... and then try to do a small handful of those exercises each day. Obviously the more we practice the more we learn but i come against resistance with the more challenging exercises. But maybe those are the ones i should be doing? Or maybe just the opposite. Do the ones that feel easy for me. I could ramble on but i'm sure this is enough to riff off of. My only constant is that i do recapitulation pretty much every day and usually some stalking but not always. Thanks in advance for any insight.

Thank you kindly. I am recapping everyday. I even directly recapped some trauma the other day for one session. I didn't want to go overboard but i've been recapping for so long that i figured i might give it a shot. felt a few interesting things afterwards. I'm not going to keep doing that regularly i just figured i'd give it a try at least and see what happens.

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Hey. That resolved the issue. Thank you!

Hi. I tried to purchase the quicksilver class today. When i went to check out it asked that i log in. I tried two passwords (i clearly forgot the password). After the second attempt i was brought to a page that said "We have detected suspicious activity from your IP address. Your access to this site is temporarily suspended." Now i cannot see the shamans cave website. only the forum. So yeah... i'll definitely need to recover my password and fix the accessibility issue. Thanks in advance for any assistance/help.

oh and i've taken Spirals I. That's it so far. And i already know and practice the basic recapitulation technique.

Hi. I looked at the class list for tier 1 on the students forum. Apparently several classes are starting on December 11th? Including Seeing, Quicksilver, Recapitulation, and Shamanic Mind. My friend Stacey recommended i take quicksilver but now i don't know since i was aiming to do recapitulation? Should i maybe do two classes and just read the logs for one of the classes later? I know that these tier 1 classes can be prerequisites for tier 2 classes and i do want to progress as much as possible within the shortest span of time. So should my goal to be eventually take every tier 1 class? Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.