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thanks. i think part of the difficulty is "seeing" them. i feel like a blind man being jumped by ten hooligans. i can kind of tune into the bad energy and then tell the general feeling of them/it "Eff" off, get out of here. leave me the hell alone. but yeah... i think putting my foot down and demanding anything leave my field is important but it's a bit difficult. the energy/entities or whatever are very persistent.

I get psychosis about once every week and half to two weeks. I surmised at one point that if this is indeed a spiritual experience/spiritual attack that there must be a literal team of entitites feeding off my energy and manipulating my energy bodies and thoughts, each with their own specialty, towards the end of feeding on specific energy signatures that they manipulate into existence through messing around with my energy and mind. I figure that there are probably lower life form types (animalistic/insect like/ etc) and more intelligent beings as well who feed me mind games. Yesterday, tor pretty much the first time ever, as i started to feel the psychosis setting in, i noticed (energetically) a tentacle wrap around my lower spine to drain me of energy. I didn't feel any need to try to banish it from my field. I felt as though observing it and being aware of its presence was enough to help reduce its efficacy. Regardless... i'm not expert enough in shamanism to know how to banish entities from my field anyway. I feel like i need to continue seeing more entities that are in my field so i'm not at the disadvantage of being blind to what these things are doing to my mind/astral/etc. How do i become more aware of infiltration of my energy bodies? Are there ways of communicating with or exorcising these kind of entities? Any other advice related to this? TIA

That makes sense. I'll try to feel it out. Thank you!

I decided to directly recap a lot of trauma two days ago. I spent pretty much one whole 12 minute recap session focusing on trauma from childhood and adulthood bouts with psychosis. My friend had cautioned me against doing this kind of thing too soon, probably two or three years back. But I've been recapping daily for a long time and i reached a point where i was like... well my psychosis couldn't get much worse than it already is so i ought to try going directly after the really difficult memories. I had a huge breakthrough a few hours later. This may be in part due to the fact that i've been meditating a lot and eating better. So it's unclear what i was doing right. Now i'm wondering if i should keep diving in and going after the trauma directly. Maybe i'm just ready for it since i've been recapping daily for so long. It also might be worth noting that i'm taking recap I this "semester" if you could call it that. TIA for any advice.

I have in the past and could still never recapture the momentum and profundity of the energy from the night before, but your reply has helped me to realize that i should probably start doing this again even it's not a perfectly efficacious method. Maybe i could try the "sliding emotions" exercise when i wake up? I even thought of drawing a glyph at night and meditating on it in the morning. I think you're right. I was actually reading recently about how right handed people are probably more left brain dominant from writing by hand.

I don't know if there's a technique or teaching from the Maker tradition that can address this but i figure i may as well ask. I learn so much throughout some of my days. Then i go to sleep and i wake up and it's like a total reset. It feels like i've forgotten everything. I usually wake up like... ugh... i don't want to face the day. So it's hard to start my day off on the right foot. Any techniques or advice to deal with this?

yeah i'm interested to see how it will all come together as i learn more. thanks.

Word. This class keeps getting recommended to me. For some reason i keep wanting to sign up for stalking I. I'm now leaning towards recap because it's been recommended a number of times. I think two classes in one "semester" is too much for me. Your advice really encouraged me to make a list of all the exercises (which i'm still in the process of doing). And i did engage with more challenging ones today, like last week's exercise seeing through the dark. That one's definitely a challenge. I did the coin exercise too. I had crazy results with that one today. But the results didn't even seem like the point of it. So i guess it's good to have ones i enjoy doing and balance that out with ones that take more energy and focus. I could ramble on but i won't. Thanks for the insight and advice

So i have taken Spirals I and am in the middle of Quicksilver. There's so many exercises under my belt that i don't totally know what to do with them. Like... i don't know if it's enough to just do the exercise for each week and then drop it like a hot potato or if i should try to determine for myself what practices i should do... and then try to do a small handful of those exercises each day. Obviously the more we practice the more we learn but i come against resistance with the more challenging exercises. But maybe those are the ones i should be doing? Or maybe just the opposite. Do the ones that feel easy for me. I could ramble on but i'm sure this is enough to riff off of. My only constant is that i do recapitulation pretty much every day and usually some stalking but not always. Thanks in advance for any insight.

Thank you kindly. I am recapping everyday. I even directly recapped some trauma the other day for one session. I didn't want to go overboard but i've been recapping for so long that i figured i might give it a shot. felt a few interesting things afterwards. I'm not going to keep doing that regularly i just figured i'd give it a try at least and see what happens.

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Hey. That resolved the issue. Thank you!

Hi. I tried to purchase the quicksilver class today. When i went to check out it asked that i log in. I tried two passwords (i clearly forgot the password). After the second attempt i was brought to a page that said "We have detected suspicious activity from your IP address. Your access to this site is temporarily suspended." Now i cannot see the shamans cave website. only the forum. So yeah... i'll definitely need to recover my password and fix the accessibility issue. Thanks in advance for any assistance/help.

oh and i've taken Spirals I. That's it so far. And i already know and practice the basic recapitulation technique.

Hi. I looked at the class list for tier 1 on the students forum. Apparently several classes are starting on December 11th? Including Seeing, Quicksilver, Recapitulation, and Shamanic Mind. My friend Stacey recommended i take quicksilver but now i don't know since i was aiming to do recapitulation? Should i maybe do two classes and just read the logs for one of the classes later? I know that these tier 1 classes can be prerequisites for tier 2 classes and i do want to progress as much as possible within the shortest span of time. So should my goal to be eventually take every tier 1 class? Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.

There are a lot of things in this world that i don't want to be happening. For instance, I possess a hyper awareness of how cars are currently destroying the planet, from my perspective at least. It just sticks out to me as a sore thumb, and I rarely come across people who see it the way I do. The destructive nature of cars is super obvious to me and most people don't seem to give it a second thought. To me, even if all the other problems were taken away, we would still have to urgently deal with the pressing issue of car induced pollution and highways and pervasive asphalt and what not. But when i step out into the world come morning time, i intend for reality to be the way it is because it's so familiar and persistent and structural to my existence. I'm used to it. It almost defines my reality. So I intend for it to continue. There's a convenience store where i can buy my cigarettes and food. It might not be in my line of sight as I first set out through my apartment complex on my determined walk towards the store, but I intend for it to be there when i get there. And when I arrive it is always there. So am I sustaining the existence of said store through intent? Additionally, There are trucks driving cross country to ensure that the world continues on as it was yesterday, to ensure that this store has the products I seek, and even though i don't like that fact... I still intend for the food these trucks are delivering to be present at the store when i get to the store. I read in some shamans cave article that when we sit in a chair we intend for the chair to hold us up. So does my half-hearted intention that the world continue as I saw it to be yesterday speak ill of my personal intentions? Or am i just one soul trying to weave my own intents in a world of conflicting intents? I read in a book about Hawaiian shamanism that we can re-dream aspects of our reality. So i imagined my Rite Aid (drug store) to be a butterfly tent. but nonetheless as i went throughout it searching for my Things, it surely did not look like a butterfly tent. the asphalt outside was not rivers of pure water. The automatic doors were not gates of pure light.

Hi. I'm not sure if it's appropriate to ask about specifics from classes here, but i am going through my log from Spirals I and this came up. At first i was kind of frustrated because i couldn't conjure to mind specific moments when I had set out to do something but failed to complete it, despite the fact that i knew that i had More than plenty. I have quit and given up on sooo many endeavors. I could remember things but not the pivotal moment when i gave up on my intents because the window of experience/time regarding endeavors is so wide. I couldn't find that specific moment for any of them. finally i went with a more emotional approach. Just seeking the energy of being disappointed that i didn't follow through or the feeling of having failed myself and others without trying to be specific. After retrieving that energy another unrealized intent came quickly to mind. and after that one another one. and so on and so forth. it was so easy to remember. Automatic. i was remembering things i hadn't remembered in a long time. So i wonder if these unrealized intents are all "stored" in the same place. Also when i broke down the energy and retrieved it on the third breath i had a visualization of the energy of the intent coming back to me as a whirling start that settled into a specific part of my body and merged with my energy. Every star landed in a different part of my body. I wonder if this is some kind of "objective" reality or if such a visualization is just unique to me to represent the energy returning in some way. A symbolic visualization to express the looser idea of energy returning to the body.

Thank you. This post is from a long time ago but i appreciate your response. I'm just seeing your response now. It's very helpful. Put's things into perpsective.

yah. she cool. heh heh. I don't even know what the class focuses on yet. it's looking like in december there's a recap class. i dunno. i think i'm waiting to hear back from Lorrie in the other thread about that. I definitely want to attend a class soon though.

i'm easily frightened and that sounds frightening. lol. but you did say good work sooo...

Hi Lorrie. Yup. I took the free class. If i'm understanding this correctly, the next Recapitulation 1 class starts on December 18th? Am i understanding that correctly? I've been recapping a lot. I suppose obviously that the class will open new doors and teach me new things about recap (obviously). I'm currently revisiting the logs from my spiral class. I did day 1 yesterday. Since I'm waiting till December if that's the case then is there any other class i can take in the meantime? Also, if i'm doing the looking at intent of the world exercise from class 1 of spirals... i kind of see a void of nothingness behind Everything. I know it's probably pure potentiality but it feels to me a bit like a void. Thank you, Eman

thanks. i'm kind of wondering what class I should take next. I've only taken spirals I. The "shamanic voice" class you linked has a lot more prerequisites listed. And i didn't see a date listed for the start of the class. it just says it's on Wednesdays. do you know if there are any classes starting soon that i should take?

When you say you're pretty fluid now, what are the markers that one is fluid? I haven't noticed a huge change from stalking these past couple years though it tends to help me in the moment. Maybe because astrologically I'm mostly water? Maybe there are changes I'm overlooking? As far as allies go, i don't know a whole lot. A very powerful shaman who plays didgeridoo and other native instruments has a song called "Angelic Alliance" and the term seems to speak for itself but I'm sure there's more i could learn about it.

I'm also potentially interested in the stalking class but if there are other classes i might benefit from coming up i am all ears.

Hi all. My friend Stacey recommended that I take the quicksilver class. I've only taken one class... Spirals. 1) what is the quicksilver class about 2) I navigated to the classes list and i didn't see the quicksilver class listed among all the first tier classes. When is the next quicksilver class? Why do i not see it listed? How can i sign up for it?