hi
i have been gambling for 13 vyears on and off.
It started when i had a trauma
it would stop when i was around loving relationships
and restart when i
was bored or single again
my trauma which manifested physicxally went away after 7 years
i was on an antidepressants then and also was taking flower essences
i left to live in a different state in australia i had no urges to gamble.
i know my trauma comes from father relationship but also sexual abuse
when i returnrd back to my state i started again the gambling but not straight away
i want to be honest i like playing the slot machines
but no matter what i win or lose i play
ive never know what i want from life.
im 36 now i got ptsd a 4 years ago from a relationship and ear sound disorder and i cant do my
singing
i have $40 to my name and am going back to emergency acomodation soon
my father is abusive mentally and emotionally
