Heya, Kai!
Thanks for the reply! You sound somewhat familiar with the art world, you hit on so many appropriate points.
"...when looking at a painting it helps to sort of 'gaze through it' to feel/see/sense the intent and the energy coming together better."
Very true! I do exactly that when I'm trying to really feel the impact of a painting. I don't always do it while browsing art online, but I can't help but do it when I'm in a real-life gallery. Seeing the work in real life carries much more presence.
I know of the main career boxes, as you called them. And I have a rough idea of what I'd like my art to be. But I still find myself floundering. Creating art for art's sake doesn't tend to motivate me. I was an illustration major in school; stories are my real passion. But rather than writing, I usually use art to express a story. My other trouble is that making art just for myself doesn't tend to motivate, either. I enjoy creating works for others. Not being told exactly what and how to paint, but helping people express their stories through my own vision, so to speak. It seems like the shamanic naturally ties into this approach to art (for me, at least). But I have yet to figure-out how to make a career of it. I don't really know any solid examples of established artists who have built a career on doing exactly that. A matter for further reflection, perhaps (just writing about it helps!).
I do know art therapy exists; I've put it on my list of things to look into later on in life!
"...we live in a time when people have difficulties letting themselves experience on a deeper level and if art manages to open them up to that even for a moment, it's done an act of healing."
Thank you for reminding me of that. I've known artists who make people cry to see their paintings. It is something I agree with, but easily forget. A painting has never done this for me. Music and artfully told stories can, but I've yet to encounter such a painting.
Your last bit of advice is extra important.
"...finding what it is in your heart that you want to express and how it happens for you, when trying to direct it I think it's important to not loose sight of the unknown and unexpected..."
This is something I've been coming to accept more and more in my art, and has been a major area of focus this past year. I was a real perfectionist as a child, but now my art has become a way for me to accept and find the beauty in imperfections. The results even give me important insights sometimes (literally learning from my mistakes)!
Thanks again for responding! Talking to folks helps me clarify my own thoughts a great deal. Do you have any favorite artists that speak to you with their work?