Journeying Specifics and Connecting with other Shamans on other planes

[ArcaneHuman]

Hi. This post is bound to meander across several subjects. So when I journey I tend to envision myself as very very small. Like, the size of my thumb. And as one would in a third person video game.  That's my "avatar" so to speak. It's not as simple as that but that's  the essential essence. So I'm wondering if that's common. It lends to me a feeling of being immersed in a world larger than life. Yet there's also some degree of first person viewing at points. Like... I recently was trying to visit the upper world and there was a vine hanging down and it was covered in thorns. I just sat there until more vines appeared before me. So many vines. So many choices. Not just the ascetic/ masochistic path of climbing the thorn covered vine. Other ways to ascend. But i was seeing them as though I myself were standing before them... even though i was laying down.

I feel like I need to journey for power objects right now and power animals. I have read that we are to visit the upper world for spirit animals. Also... instinct comes to mind. How well should we trust our instincts when we journey? I know from first hand experience that doing stupid things can have repercussions. Yet even with that learned understanding to respect the spiritual dimensions i still do things that are quite strange before i have a chance to even think about why i'm doing it. Like... I crossed this rope bridge to cross a great chasm between two cliffs and once i reached the other side i swiftly cut the bridge and it fell so i couldn't make it back by normal means. I had to zoom out into space and then return to the other side. I have no idea why i did that. 

Also... I really feel like i have to manifest a way of having a "tribe" In Real Life. This likely involves finances. And definitely healing my agoraphobia and social fears. My question is... has anyone tried to manifest a better life by linking up with other Real Life shaman's who have similar goals in the spiritual planes with the intention of meeting them in real life? Two things come to mind as important with this 1) How to tell if you're actually interacting energetically with a real person when you seek to contact people on higher planes and 2) Not crossing people's boundaries and setting your own boundaries. Like... I had a rather playful spiritual battle with someone once that might have just been imaginary but i felt like there was a real person on the other end of what was a very real energetic interchange. I felt like they were a gatekeeper and they were even training me perhaps. Or maybe they just wanted a spiritual playmate and were just playing around with me. I think it's okay to have fun and play but that night basically ended with me getting punched in the head because i was trying to stop an angry drunk from throwing his girlfriend around. lol. i had to ice my head but i was fine otherwise. 

Also lastly... how do we deal with being effectively blind to the spiritual elements of this world. as i do my healing it's almost like trying to unknot  a complicated knot but i not only can't see the rope i can't even feel it. i wake up sometimes and there are beings everywhere in the room for a fleeting few seconds. Obviously they're always there but i can't see them. I fear being attacked by these things. how great of an advantage they must have. I've heard there are more with us than against us but it's hard.