A storehouse of unrealized intents and the whirling star?

[ArcaneHuman]

Hi. I'm not sure if it's appropriate to ask about specifics from classes here, but i am going through my log from Spirals I and this came up.

At first i was kind of frustrated because i couldn't conjure to mind specific moments when I had set out to do something but failed to complete it, despite the fact that i knew that i had More than plenty. I have quit and given up on sooo many endeavors. I could remember things but not the pivotal moment when i gave up on my intents because the window of experience/time regarding endeavors is so wide. I couldn't find that specific moment for any of them. finally i went with a more emotional approach. Just seeking the energy of being disappointed that i didn't follow through or the feeling of having failed myself and others without trying to be specific. After retrieving that energy another unrealized intent came quickly to mind. and after that one another one. and so on and so forth. it was so easy to remember. Automatic. i was remembering things i hadn't remembered in a long time. So i wonder if these unrealized intents are all "stored" in the same place.

Also when i broke down the energy and retrieved it on the third breath i had a visualization of the energy of the intent coming back to me as a whirling start that settled into a specific part of my body and merged with my energy. Every star landed in a different part of my body. I wonder if this is some kind of "objective" reality or if such a visualization is just unique to me to represent the energy returning in some way. A symbolic visualization to express the looser idea of energy returning to the body.

[silenceseeker]

3 hours ago, ArcaneHuman said:

Hi. I'm not sure if it's appropriate to ask about specifics from classes here, but i am going through my log from Spirals I and this came up.

I've given  you access to the Spirals 1 student forum so that you can ask questions there, that is the best place to ask as it keeps everything from getting scattered all over the forums and you've taken the class and are clearly interested in using the practices and learning more: https://www.shamanscave.com/forum/forum/6-spirals/

 

3 hours ago, ArcaneHuman said:

At first i was kind of frustrated because i couldn't conjure to mind specific moments when I had set out to do something but failed to complete it, despite the fact that i knew that i had More than plenty. I have quit and given up on sooo many endeavors. I could remember things but not the pivotal moment when i gave up on my intents because the window of experience/time regarding endeavors is so wide. I couldn't find that specific moment for any of them. finally i went with a more emotional approach. Just seeking the energy of being disappointed that i didn't follow through or the feeling of having failed myself and others without trying to be specific. After retrieving that energy another unrealized intent came quickly to mind. and after that one another one. and so on and so forth. it was so easy to remember. Automatic. i was remembering things i hadn't remembered in a long time. So i wonder if these unrealized intents are all "stored" in the same place.

Also when i broke down the energy and retrieved it on the third breath i had a visualization of the energy of the intent coming back to me as a whirling start that settled into a specific part of my body and merged with my energy. Every star landed in a different part of my body. I wonder if this is some kind of "objective" reality or if such a visualization is just unique to me to represent the energy returning in some way. A symbolic visualization to express the looser idea of energy returning to the body.

Basically, the intents can be stored in different areas of your energy body, so good work in being able to recognize where they are. When you take Recap., you will learn how to target those areas in your body to get access to the memories behind those intents you formed and recover it as well as the intent itself. The Recap and Spirals practices go hand in hand in helping to recover energy that you have trapped in different parts of your physical and energetic body over your lifetime. So you are doing things correctly. What the Recap will do for you in this process is to help you not only recover the energy from these experiences but it will also help you to understand and recognize the patterns in your life that got created over time either from these experiences or were reinforced as a result of the patterns once in place.