Recapping difficult situations with success

[ArcaneHuman]

I decided to directly recap a lot of trauma two days ago. I spent pretty much one whole 12 minute recap session focusing on trauma from childhood and adulthood bouts with psychosis. My friend had cautioned me against doing this kind of thing too soon, probably two or three years back. But I've been recapping daily for a long time and i reached a point where i was like... well my psychosis couldn't get much worse than it already is so i ought to try going directly after the really difficult memories. I had a huge breakthrough a few hours later. This may be in part due to the fact that i've been meditating a lot and eating better. So it's unclear what i was doing right. Now i'm wondering if i should keep diving in and going after the trauma directly. Maybe i'm just ready for it since i've been recapping daily for so long. 

It also might be worth noting that i'm taking recap I this "semester" if you could call it that. 

TIA for any advice.

[Moonshadow]

((AH))

It sounds like you're listening to yourself and letting your energy guide you and that's the right approach. You got great advice from your friend, but as you said you sensed you were ready to come to terms after picking at the edges of your trauma scabs. I think your huge breakthrough probably came from being in an overall healthier energetic space- good eating, long-term recap, and meditation to boot- high five. You were ready.  

About recapping trauma: I wouldn't dive into it directly when you officially start the class for the sake of experiencing each step alone. And it's a funny thing, recapping trauma: at first some days you can do it, other days you'll be watching a movie and start bawling because the movie somehow triggered something connected to the trauma. For me, I approached trauma in slivers, layers, aspects of it here and there. I'd still go back to square one as taught once class begins since there's a method to the approach, even if it feels like you might know some of this stuff already because of your independent recap work. What you achieved with the recap so far will most likely give you much deeper experiences with the recap 1 exercises you'll get in the class.

I'm sure others will jump in with some advice on what worked for them too.

eman

[ArcaneHuman]

20 hours ago, Eman said:

And it's a funny thing, recapping trauma: at first some days you can do it, other days you'll be watching a movie and start bawling because the movie somehow triggered something connected to the trauma. For me, I approached trauma in slivers, layers, aspects of it here and there.

That makes sense. I'll try to feel it out. Thank you!