how to exist in todays world?

[Iam]

I am and always have been on a spiritual journey, half here half some where else. Recently, after almost losing my life and many strange events, I began to dance a dance where I spin and now I can't seem to get back to the "real" world. My journey is lonely, I'm ok with that, but I don't know how to live in today's society.

[Mark]

Welcome Iam,

 

I think many people here can relate to your story. I, for one, never really fit in for most of my life although I did a damned good impersonation of a person who was trying to do just that. I understand that feeling of loneliness and not being in sync with today's society. It didn't look like you were looking for advice so I will just say I hope you can find something here to help you.

 

Mark

[Iam]

Thank you Mark. I have many questions. I'm just beginning to understand what is going on. I have trouble right now with a disconnect from personal relationships, especially my children. I don't know how much to share in here but I've seen battlefields of light and dark, have been given a structure to help people using technology New and ancient. I feel the Goddess Nut works thru me. I dream of treasure hidden by the Templars and if being in their boat. The information comes fast at times and I appear to others as "not functional" but I feel strongly about my visions. I dance a whirling dance, it was a gift also to weave the Hevens and Earth. This Earth Day I had a dream the heart of the Earth is on Oak Island ...or something that bleeds red and purple into the water. What is your journey like? What did you do with all the feelings and information. ??? ...my dance is important...to me, I feel my right hand get hot and I have what I call my cosmic umbilical cord attached to my head. I spin and spin....and spin. Do other people have these gifts? I follow the omens all day and appear to be lost and not functioning in society. How do others function? ...that's just a start. Thank u for validating me. <3

[Iam]

Mark

Real quick, since I noticed your Fibonacci and post of a Stone Hedge type structure. The structure I was given is a dome with a spiral stair case leading to a dome glass top. It has energy storage on the bottom, a mote to seal it, the glass dome at the top creates heat energy and has a valve system to also seal it. There us a filtration system with the mote and it runs in to an aquaponics system. There r flats of veggies on top level using the dome on top as Sun source. The structure is covered in quartz. Utilizing fiber optics for light and a light tube in center also .... Its easier to show but it looks like an eye if u looked from the sky down. ....Good night. Glad this forum is here. I don't have money for classes but if I can just get some better clarity and share ...I'm more than happy, any outlet of understanding is amazing.

Edited November 5, 2015 by Iam

[Mark]

Thank you Mark. I have many questions. .... What is your journey like? What did you do with all the feelings and information. ??? ...my dance is important...to me,

 

My journey was chaotic and winding. It started to make sense and became more clear once I started self-healing and using intent. The recapitulation as described on our site is a great place to start. As far as your "structure" I think what is most important is what it means to you. Often times those kinds of images directly relate to you and may not mean much to anybody else. Sit with it. Where does it strike you? How does it make you feel? What else comes up?

[Michelle]

I was recently reading about animal symbolism. Bat is the symbol of rebirth and transposing things to severe connection from the old to take up the new. The link was made to how babies develop head up in the womb, then turn upside down to prepare for birth, turning their back on the non physical realm to prepare to enter the physical one, so to speak. I didn't do this. Doctors turned me in the womb so I would be head down twice and I turned back three times. I never 'severed' my connection with the non physical or the spiritual realm as it's also called. I came into this world with that connection still strong and I've been like that my whole life.

 

As a child I would be criticised for my "too grown up" understanding of things. I could easily see and understand things no-one else could and it never bothered me, but I did learn to shut it down in order to live more easily in society. It came with a cost though. At least now I can choose to reconnect or not and on my own terms.