My Path

[Narael]

Hi everyone

I was born with the gift, seen things, spirits, night terrors, rare sickness, voices, demons, O.b.e's and so on. The stress of it all has left me with a brain sickness, but on a plus note my neurosurgeons says I'm normal, I didn't have a mental illness (much to the relief of mum).

I'm also the social outcast, shunned, the hermit. Only loved by my family and my partner. People love calling me the witch, Satans daughter, loony you name it they say it.

And that's why I'm here, to learn and see how everyone else deals with their gift.

 

Cheers everyone

[Beth]

Welcome, Narael!

 

Your story is a familiar one to many in the cave. I hope you will find some things here that ease and aid your journey.

 

Beth

[Michelle]

Hi Narael,

 

Welcome home! I've had similar experiences, though not quite the same. I suffered a lot from low self esteem, so I was always mentally bashing myself for being 'different'. Why couldn't I be normal? Why did I have to be the one who saw things so differently? So deeply?

 

It was a really long journey for me, but I came to see it as my strength. Being different can mean you are odd, strange, less than the heard. Or it can mean you are unique, a rare gift and have strengths and abilities most don't, which can set you apart. I chose to take being called weird as a compliment.

 

What I find now is I am finding more enlightened people around me. I am choosing to walk my path, which is not like anyone else's and it shouldn't be. I am choosing to honour me, whatever that will be. I choose to like me, my uniqueness, my individuality. I choose to just like me . I'm finding people are more accepting now too. Partly it's because times do seem to be changing and more people are becoming more aware and partly it's because I'm getting older and hanging out with older people more, even online.

 

The drum in my pick is one I made myself. I went to a shamanic drum workshop. My drum's name is George. Most people go for what they feel are more spiritual names or more 'traditional' names. Not me. That's part of my uniqueness

[Narael]

Hi Beth, Hi Michelle nice to meet you.

 

It's good to meet people who share some of the same experiences. Music is my great healer, I love listening to the Cello

[silenceseeker]

Welcome Narael,

 

I'm going to say pretty much what Michelle has already said. You learn to see it as a true gift and understand that the people who shun you are the ones that don't have the gift and therefore are speaking from a place of ignorance and fear. Eventually, you learn to feel compassion for them and see humanity in a larger perspective where social divisions really don't matter much.

 

Lorrie

[Narael]

Hi silenceseeker, yes I do feel compassion for them cause I'm highly empathetic, that's the main reason I stay away from the crowd. I know people are scared and hurting, especially nowadays people's emotions are becoming more intense, a lot of people I come across are going through extremely bad ordeals (but surface wise, they hide it well).

[Michelle]

I shut down my empathic side for years because I couldn't cope with what I was picking up. It caused so much trouble for me, doing that. It was part of my denial. I'm now in the process of opening that up again and learning to handle it better. Narael, have you learnt how to shield? To create a personal shield around you, to keep the energies out, so you can read what's happening, but not be consumed by it?

[Narael]

I'd love to know how to shut down my empathetic side, can you teach me how to, I would be really greatful, and no I don't know how to shield, I normally pray for protection but I still get infected.

[ralph]

Hi Narael,

 

I have a few people from the cave in mind which are empaths themselves, I'm sure they can give you good pieces of advice.

 

From a teacher's point of view, I can see some classes taught here that might really help :

 

- Recapitulation : Can help to be able to see the difference between what is yours and what is not in term of energy and emotions.

 

- Spirals : Can sharpen your intent and give you some juice so you can protect yourself from external pressure.

 

 

I'd like to add a little warning here. The classes taught in the cave are part of a vast teaching program that is not meant to adress specifics but to put students on a shamanic path. I'm not suggesting you pick two classes and all your problems will be solved. I'm suggesting that if you wish to see if the Maker's tradition has answers for you, you're of course welcome to try some classes and the two I quoted seem like a good start.

 

Ralph

[Michelle]

Narael, I don't know how I shut it down, it was really a response to living in a very toxic environment and not being able to take it anymore. It was my family home when growing up, so I wasn't able to run away from the world. I think it is part of a survival instinct we have and takes a lot of emotional trauma to happen.

 

Trust me, you don't want to shut it down. It's a part of who you are, it's a natural ability you were born with and I believe such things happen because it's part of the overall reason of why we are here.

 

Being an empath is awesome for giving you early warning when danger's about. It can help to keep you safe. If you find later on you are drawn to healing work, it is crucial for helping you know what is wrong or what the cause might be, without them needing to go into it.

 

Ideally, the best way forward I find is to embrace who you are and learn to shield so you can still sense what's going on but don't have to take it in and have it be a part of you. Like being at a party and watching a conversation take place on the other side of the room, instead of feeling you are part of it.

 

I'm doing the recap 1 class now that Ralph mentioned. I'd highly recommend it as a place to start. It teaches you to know what is your energy and what has been taken in from others - and how to get rid of energy that isn't yours. It seems a simply exercise, but it does work.

 

Part of shielding is also being really grounded in knowing who you are as a person and having strong boundaries about what is acceptable and not acceptable behaviour toward you. It's crucial to get to know yourself well and to know how you feel inside. That way when you start to feel strange, you can tune into your body to find out if this is you responding to a situation you've picked up on but aren't aware of yet, or if it's an energy from someone else you've picked up on.

 

Once you know these, you can create an energetic boundary in your auric field, which is essentially what a shield is. And also, learn how to shake off energy at the end of the day. Cleaning yourself energetically is vital. I don't know if any of this is taught here, but I think it might be. I do strongly suggest recap 1 as a place to start though.