He is trying to kill me...

[Vasily]

Hello. So... in my room I have a guest that tries to choke me...I lost the number of times now, maybe 7-10 times now. He tries to attack me 2 to 4 times at night but my awarness is really up-leveled so when he just think of doing smth I wake up but simetimes he is so stealthty that I wake up from that my Adam apple is moved. He don't want to speak, I once saw him and he looked like a really small boar but when he attacks me he is big like a human- I don't see him, I just feel him or I see verry blurry the energy that's makes his shape, I think that he may change shapes.Sometimes he just tries to-like smashing me with energy force or smth to weaker me, but I'm not so easy. But I'm really tired.

When I was 17th again I was surrounded by spirits, shadows, something like a demons, and one time I saw something like a yellow worm-like one meter in lenght and 15-20 santimeters in diametar floathing and just dissapiared in my yard. Then I couldn't see any of them, I just felt them but sometimes I was able to just glance them for a sec or even less. Now I still can't see them but I feel them and see some defformed blurry shapes. The strange thing is that in my room there is a spirit cat that I didn't feel even once and I still don't feel her. One time when I was sleeping in the middle of the day someone poked me in my back and when I wake up I saw her and she freaked out and just dissapired.

I can't conneced with my teachers or is just that they don't want to speak with me. I don't know, not even once they showed themselfs to me. And my room sometimes is like a spirid parade. I have no idea what to do. If I had money I would go to the church but I have none and every where that find some hope there always have to have money. And in Bulgaria I can't find any healers or Shamans. I find ones but with their big ADDs I don't think that htey are really the ones that I need.

 

I hope that someone see this

Edited May 7, 2016 by Vasily

[cyfnos]

Hey Vasily,

Sorry to hear about your troubles. We work as healers too here at the cave, if you want we could do a distance healing session to see what the problem is. Let me know if you are interested.

In any case healing your energy is probably the best course of action to eliminate the hooks other energies can use to connect with you but also your own sense of detachment can be raised in order for you see those things as they are and not anymore as they contribute to your own fear. As usual recap is the first step. We have a sessions starting up soon and the recap class is offered. Since you seem to be naturally fluid, grounding yourself actively would be a good option too.

Here are a couple of articles:

http://www.shamanscave.com/self-healing/what-is-grounding

http://www.shamanscave.com/practices/grounding

cyfnos

[Vasily]

I'm not afraid of them. And I don't want to stop seeing them. But I wan't to know what to do when someone is attacking me. Or I want to know who he is and what he wants?Why is he here ? But none of them want's or wanted to communicate with me. And I'm not really good with this kind of stuff. And the thing that you called Recap is something that I call Re-borning or Re-starting. It's not really the same but it really close to the thing that I did. I can't remember if I did something with my head thought.

And I don't have any money to pay you for the healing session.

[cyfnos]

Yes I understand, that's why I suggested grounding, it is a powerful tool to bring clarity, to find out the why of any situation, your place in it, your real responsibility and then how to change it if you choose to. In our tradition we put a big emphasis on self-healing, the recapitulation is something we do all our lives once we committed to it, every day until we die. It is a commitment to our energy to keep it whole and healthy, to cherish it really, we are born with it so it is our responsibility and no one else will get a piece of it.

 

In business terms: I worked so hard to get it back that now I know the real price of letting it go for nothing... and furthermore if someone attacks me I will have plenty of energy to defend myself or move out of the way.

 

We are charging a small fee for classes but the distance healing are free of charge.

 

Cyfnos

[Moonshadow]

Vasily,

 

Let me tell you a story about an experience I had tonight while walking our puppy. There was an energetic residual of a dead person (you might call them ghosts but I don't use that word). It saw that I saw it, and was curious, so it followed me all the way home. At the front door, I told it that it did not have my permission to enter, and it left. I created no conscious agreement, but I did create an opening on the walk by my curiosity which allowed it to draw near me. If you don't want to be attacked, I would examine my desire for the communion, and look within to what pain you hold creates an unconscious agreement with this thing to attack you. In what areas do you currently see yourself energetically weakened? Find that "hook" as Cyfnos says, and sever it. Seeing other beings is fun and all that, but nothing can continue to invade your energy without some agreement. It could be something as simple as a feeling of unworthiness about something entirely different that had created the opening for a form of agreement.

 

This is what I would do if I were you: stand your ground as a warrior and tell it, out loud, with strength, that it is not welcome and to be gone. IF it returns, ban it again and fight it off and tell it to never come back. Turn the tables. Changing the agreement between you and this boar-like thing will not change your ability to see other entities: you've simply drawn this one to you because it is attracted to your fear of it, and other emotions you've unconsciously made available to it.

 

I will work on you too. We are here to help, hence the open forums, but Christian says it best: healing your own energy gives you control over these types of occurrences. If and when you can, even if it is in another place and time and not here, to heal your own energy (something every human can benefit from), is the best way to go.

 

Vasily, come back in a couple days and give us an update. I would like to know any developments, and if I we can continue to help. Stand your ground, and be well.

 

 

Mandy

[Vasily]

Thank you, I will try. I'll consider the classes. And I'm really bad with meditation, yesterday I find some guided meditation to help me find my iner shaman but it worked for some seconds and he told me that I'm not ready and told me to "go home", utf. I just glance his eyes and then he became a bluish-purple fast moving shadow. Today I'll try again but what can I do if my teachers don't want me to learn

[Vasily]

Is this dangerous "Begin by facing the direction which you feel the energy coming from which is bothering you. It could be towards someone's house, a cardinal direction, or just simply the way it "feels" most strongly. Place your feet about shoulder width apart. Since all human beings are creatures of the earth, it makes the most sense when you think about it to ground their energy back to their larger source, which is the planet itself. Mother earth accepts all her children's energy and will take this from you; or rather, you are bending it back to her.". If it's a spirit ?

[Moonshadow]

Hello again.

 

The article links Christian posted are incredibly helpful. Grounding makes you feel better and calms your energy so can potentially avoid confrontations. I'm not familiar with that stance in your last post but yes: we are from earth and that's why grounding your energy with the earth's energy is really beneficial.

 

In the end you just want to feel centered, calm and in control, it's the best position to stand in and face all experiences that come your way.

 

 

Mandy

[cyfnos]

Like any energy movement it is best to learn it with your own energy first before attempting it onto other energies. Actually I found out it is much more powerful that way, you spend less energy and achieve results more easily. Of course the trick is to accept the changes in yourself by that process, in some way you have to become someone who is not attacked anymore so in other word a different person. This means that what you have to do is to ground your own energy not the energy that come at you, by doing that you change yourself, heal yourself and understand why all of that happened in the first place.

 

In the end it is by moving your own energy that you become most effective. As long as you are OK with change it should work well. Now if you find yourself in a fight and cannot avoid it give it your best shot, a do or die attitude and mean it. I have found myself in such situation but I had practiced on myself first a do or die intent to heal my energy. Either I heal or I die those are the choices I gave myself. Change is always difficult but once our energy taste a bit of the freedom that comes with it tends to never let go like Pit Bull and a bone. Now if your own energy is more like a Pit Bull I doubt you will get attacked a lot...

 

C

[Vasily]

Cyfnos. Can you make that healing session ? I think that I have an idea what to do with him and I will try now bit to be sure can you make the session ?

[cyfnos]

OK

[Vasily]

I think that I did it, but I'm not so sure