My sister and I may need assistance

[Ticklebits]

I come from complicated ancestry. Ive lurked this site for years now and its the most legit and relevant I can find. My sister and I were born into natural gift. I thought until about the age of 10 that every place we went was haunted (and, really, they are in a sense but I was having very direct experiences) when I finally realized I was the the "haunted" one. We had little to no training growing up but I have quite a lot of book learning and am planning to make this the year I truly begin to hone my gifts. Theres a place on this website where Niteshad refers to Makers or shamans as "The healer that is always in pain," or something probably worded more eloquently but to that effect. That line has resonated with me for a couple of years now as I have felt, perhaps inarticulated, but felt that my whole life. For the sake of brevity however, let me sum up that there is no escaping for us. Wyrd, as I would call it, is stronger for some and while I was always they curious sister Ive wtched my other half struggle to ignore, escape or outrun our purpose for a long time. She is worse off for it. Forward is the only way to go from here.

This post is in regard to an earlier post I saw. The OP was informed that a free healing group is available (perhaps depending on circumstance?) to those who need it...and I fear I might. I dont underestimate my gift but I am humble and I/my family have so many people (I use that description lightly) who want to hurt us... Some mostly want our children. Now, on top of those truly dangerous who are already a daily struggle we have a lesser "witch" slinging unwarranted hate, spells and curses I doubt she even knows much about (yet dont underestimate) at us. Im steeped in curses old, older and new!

I dont think I have the knowledge or skill to untangle them all. Even the smallest bit of clarity or advice would be appreciated right now. Somehwere to start?

As an aside, I am very monetarily poor. I would have taken every one of the classes on this page, if it had been an option, a long time ago. It is on the to-do list. Its a long list on our budget though :\

 

Thank you so mch for reading,

Tickle

[Nick]

The recap is the first step here that most of us take. It would help a lot with the things you were mentioning and the exercise and description of it are found on the main site and available to the general public. It's a deceivingly simple looking exercise, but it works and has done wonders for a lot of people, including myself. If you feel as if there are curses that are affecting you, the recap can help you see where they come from, how they affect you and give you the detachment you'll need in moving past them. I'd start there. You won't need any money to do the exercise and if you have questions about it I'd be happy to do what I can to help. Here is a link to the exercise-

http://www.shamanscave.com/self-healing/the-recapitulation

Let me know if you have any questions.

-Nick

[Ticklebits]

Thank you so much for replying I have read the recap article so many times. I was unaware it could be so helpful in this respect. The simplicity of recapitulation makes perfect sense to me and is a large part of why Ive been reading from this site for so long. Ive met so many self proclaimed wiccans or witches or what have you that spend hours setting up what seems to be a big useless mess to me. It never felt right to me. Ive learned more from trees than I ever learned from ppl like them. But anyway, before I make this too long, is there any specific pointers you can give me? For example a feeling I might have or by what sense I should feel out what the ppl who want to hurt me/us have done to us?

Oh and one more quick question since Ive never seen it mentioned. My sister and I have quite a few shared traumatic memories. Would it be more or less helpful to do some of our recapping together? That is our plan as it stands and I couldnt think of any reason it would be dangerous. In fact, most of the signs Ive been receiving from dreams, prayers and various other friendly sources have indicated it could be very therapeutic. Just hoping for some thoughts from someone more experienced at this exercise than I am. Again, thank you so much for your reply

[Beth]

Hi T. -

 

Nick will probably answer this, but let me address one question you had regarding recapping with your sister. You should recap alone; we are each unique beings, regardless of our shared experience and regardless of our connection to one another. I'd advise recapping in separate places. If, later, you want to compare notes, that would be fine, but this is an individual's journey. As much as you might share with your sister, you are still separate from her unless you are conjoined twins. Even then, two people means two separate sets of perceptions and experiences. You don't want to water down or alter your own experience by joining it to hers. That could get confusing and ultimately be unhelpful. Nick may have more to say on this subject, but that's my bit for now.

 

Perhaps some day you'll be able to join us in a class or two.

 

Take care. I wish you well in recapping.

 

Beth

[Ticklebits]

I can see how that might get messy for sure... I suppose Ive just thought of us as two halves of the same whole for most of my life. We have often been eachothers only true companion but I always try to look out for her and I know this recap might be a rockier road on her end. You may be right to advise she do this alone though.

I just gave her an empty journal to record in which I believe will help.

Grandmother spider has been calling on me lately (in dreaming and waking visions) and her presence reassures me that we are doing the right thing by re-assessing our goals in life and starting new journeys. Recapping being only one of them. But I trust Spiders presence to be helpful in our endeavors.

Anyhoo, I would love to join you in your classes one day sooner rather than later It is on the list *nods* I love your Leonard Cohen quote btw and thanks so much to anybody who reads this. Often times I have epiphanies by simple correspondence so I appreciate it more than you know.

~T

[Nick]

Hey T,

 

I think in starting the recap it's easiest to just begin with simple everyday things and work your way back from there. The reason for that is simply because people generally aren't as attached to their day to day life as they are their past. In time as you work back, those connections will begin to lose their hold on you and from there you can take the recap towards the more complicated stuff. Often people like to try and tackle the big stuff head on, but it just isn't very effective. It's like having an incredibly tangled knot with all kinds of small knots working together to form a really big knot. There isn't really going to be anyway of untangling that from the center, but if you work from the edges moving in as you go, by the time you get to that really big knot, it won't be that big anymore.

 

So, I'd start with the small stuff and see where it takes you. Let us know how it works out

 

Nick

[Ticklebits]

I wouldnt have thought to do it that way. Thanks for the advice! I was kind of lost as to where Id start and definitely planned on writing a list of some sort. Small to Large is fiiine with me haha.

Ive been working to pay more attention to moon cycles and the sky/stars etc. In your experience are there better times of day, week or month to do recapping or for recapping concerning a particular theme?

I also read the article about grounding, although it has been a while. It seems like many different things one does in a day can affect shamanistic practices. Timing, food, music, emotion (obviously). I plan to record these as I go along and look for any connections but are there any significant ones youve experienced personally? Just curious.

[Nick]

Glad you are giving it some thought and you're right, a lot of things can come in the way when it comes to the shamanic. I find it's best to try and make the recap a daily ritual of sorts. The recap can take you very far in your quest for understanding, healing and knowledge, but it does take some work. In the beginning I preferred working on it at night, though anytime that you can be alone and uninterrupted should work fine. Getting started I really wouldn't worry too much about the logistics of things. In time those things may pop back up, but the important thing, if you do want to move with this exercise, is to just get started.

 

Some people work well with lists, especially as they are getting started out, though over time, as you learn your energy, you'll be able to follow the emotional connections within your energy to a place of clarity that is beyond your minds control. So... it might seem like an intellectual exercise, but it's really not. As you progress with the recap it will be you're larger energy and deeper connection to yourself that becomes your guide. From there you'll know where you need to go and what you need to do to get what you are looking for. Getting to that point can be a challenge, though the recap is set up in a pretty straight forward fashion. If you put your energy into it, you'll get results. They may come out in funny and unexpected ways, but that is half the fun of finding out you're not the person that you think you are. Who doesn't love a good surprise

[Ticklebits]

Lol thanks. Yea Im very excited to just get started. We just found another set of curse beads after I destroyed (or rather back to its owner) the first. This one is more intricate and Ive been getting on it in other ways. I just have very little alone time haha I remember being very surprised the first time I popped into a shamanic "journey" though. Unfortunately I was SO surprised I kinda klutzed my way right back out of it like in certain lucid dreams.

I do plan on recording in my book i use for these sorts of things though the lists and watching how this progresses. Gonna take it slow at first and advise my sis to do the same. Will post if anything real juicy happens