Today I kept seeing weird shadows that seemed to fade and come back on my walls. They were like small circles. It seemed like I was mesmerized by them, and I tried to go into one. But all I managed to do was drop my paper towels.
I think you're opening energy outside the normal parameters of what we define as the real world. The fabric of reality, while very persistent, is still only a fabric. Over time, they will open more for you in terms of awareness and recall, but I think right now, you're doing the right thing by just trying to work with them where you can.
What can I do with them?
Stare into one, stop, then instantly try to record what you saw in your brain. The regular way you see the world.
Here is a method I used to use - you might try it
Look, and once you feel yourself being 'gone', immediately blink your eyes, like you were taking a snapshot with a camera. That will do two things: bring you back, and secondly, give you an ending point in perception to go back to that is abrupt. Usually, the mind is able to recall better that way, although the way it recalls in the beginning will probably be pretty strange. Over time, you can begin to stretch out that perception into the 'snapshot', and then you begin to realize there is no real separation between then and now - you start to move energetically much more fluidly.
